Depressed and feeling sorry for myself...

It's depressing when all you have on your calendar is doctors appointments, MRI's, PET, and CT scans...This life (in this aspect) really sucks because you always have to work around all this shit. 

I guess the worse part is not knowing when those tests are going to come up positive and my doctor will tell me there's nothing else that can be done. Call hospice - you're going to die...

Today I only have to get the girls to school, clean and cook (I like doing these things), being retired is great! Yesterday I had an MRI and tomorrow I have a pulmonary test.

So someone said to me the other day, "Why don't you blog about your cancer stuff?" So I have decided to go ahead and hopefully, the others that are going through the same or similar experience, or they know someone who is, this will help. Now please be aware that these are my treatments, feelings, responses and that they may not be the same as what you go through.

This is my personal journal. I do cuss, a lot at times, I do get angry but I also feel that I deserve to express myself in whatever way I want. This is my time...however much is left.